I am up and not in a good way. I cant sleep. I wont divulge any sordid details. But I will say that it has been vanilla and melancholy in the least extreme phrasing. I had a good to really good day yesterday, as a matter of fact. It still bothers me how that these sleepless nights have to be a combination of my natural bio-rhythmic sleeping patterns but also an effect of the psycho-billy pills my family's doctor has me on. The truth is that I have no idea if I am healthy or unhealthy. OR, if I'm healthily unhealthy or unhealthily healthy. (Say that five times fast...fastly?.....rapidly.) I suspect the latter is the farthest from the truth. But as I said, I really haven't the slightest clue. SO, here I am listening to my new favorite friend spotify. =)I was recommended this by a very good acquaintance and after having delayed using it for months, tried it two weeks ago and havent topped using it since. Literally. I have been listening to free music albums for two weeks non-stop. I dream in music if you need an tangible example to understand the gravity of this feat. =)Not that porn was out of the question, but it is very hard for me to find any of substance, lol. AND , with this I shall leave thee. Have one on me, have a good one..or two.. or three.

Sincerely,
Crack's-in-his-thighs ;l

The Things, Places and People I remember

The best part of the holidays is that school, work, and the year itself is coming to close. It draws comparisons to dessert at the end of a really good but not overly filling meal. The year always seems to be like the toweling off after getting out of a really cold pool. IT feels good because all the stimulation awakens the senses. The year is telling us to hurry and take some unfiltered and genuine pleasure out of all the hard work that went into the past year. There are so many times that I wanted to just fall asleep against my obligations. It is completely nice that I can take all those times and ball them into a perfect pi circle and then just sort of watch the whole thing dart off into the horizon. SO I say that all the while there are things to be done remember to remember why the holidays are special to all of us earthlings. =)

Over and Out,
AmbidextrouslyCalibrated

how ?

As my semester, although short term, is coming to its conclusion, the educational engine that is mine all mine is finally warmed up. Learning something has always been a passion for me. But the ironic thing about this fact is that I always seem to gloss the details of my experience. I suppose that the logic behind my behavior is that I was just really focused in on the motivating factor that told me i wanted to learn, instead of honing my skills and enjoying, i mean really getting down and dirty with the details of the experience. I mean with the relationships cultivated, the recording of the process, and the constructive thoughts processes that were present as well. I have been turning over the idea in my mind that school is in of itself very healthy. As an institution, its purpose is to push the confines of the people's imagination, even to let these people exit the pattern of universal thought control that permeates the airwaves most days. I only need to remind my myself constantly that this place that means so much to the dreams and imagination of my present and future is only one place that still has limited potential. That the rest of the world holds the rest. I am always striving to be aware of my place as a student and participant to the entirety.

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